Ok, I know I haven't been keeping up on these installments for aggggessss.
With it being our One Year Anniversary this week, I felt it was necessary to update.
If you are behind, check out "The Story of Us" tab above for all the links :)
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We returned back to Utah after our Disneyland stint in So-Cal, and I could sense something different with Ryan & I's relationship.
Not bad by any means!
Just...different.
I was still extremely adamant on NOT getting married young.
In my mind it was dumb, irresponsible, and just plain weird.
Who knows what they want to do with their life at age 18/19/20 anyways?!
Ryan would tell me that he wasn't thinking or marriage at all, then we would drop the subject completely. I never had thought of myself getting married, I knew it would happen one day in the future, but I was definitely not one of those girls who had their wedding dress & colors picked out at age 7.
One night after a long day of school and homework, Ryan picked me up to go for a drive.
It was snowing outside so I insisted on getting my favorite hot chocolate EVER.
Hershey's hot chocolate at 7-11. Yummmmmmmmmmmm.
We were driving around, looking at everyone's Christmas lights & drinking our hot chocolates.
We liked the white icicle lights, colored net lights, and loved the fun Christmas decor...
then conversation turned to what characteristics we each would like to see in our future homes.
I want a brick/stone home, so does Ryan.
Ryan wants a home on a cul-de-sac, so do I.
I want a bigger Ranch style home, so does Ryan.
He wants a Spanish/Tuscan style home, so do I.
I want to settle in either California or Texas, so does Ryan.
It just kept on going back and forth like this.
Is this even real?!
How could we both be thinking of essentially the same dream house?
I've been building this house in my mind for YEARS.
Not gonna lie, it was kinda weird.
At first I was thinking..."Um, is he just copying everything I say?!"
But, as the conversation continued on like this for a long while, I knew that it just wasn't possible.
Nobody is that good.
Things that I wanted in my life just seemed to line up with what Ryan wanted.
We kept on talking about our future homes when it just hit me.
Wow.
I could see myself being with him for the rest of my life, and being so so happy.
Of course, once I had this epiphany my mind started racing.
Is he the one?
Am I ready?
Oh gosh, I'm so dang young.
I want to travel.
Would he travel with me?
Does he want to marry me?
He hasn't even said he loved me yet!!
{I'm not dumb, I knew he was falling for me ;)}
We continued on with our drive, poor Ryan not knowing what was racing through my brain, we drove through the lightly falling snow, with our 7-11 hot chocolates, talking about what we wanted for our separate lives...
when I realized that we were actually talking about plans for our future life together.
<3 Bri